Fuck Your Couch!
I have had somewhat of a realization over the past few weeks not unlike the first time I watched The Big Lebowski while high. Only this time I'm totally clearheaded and I think it's time for me to make some major life changes. It's some sort of fucking miracle that I'm alive and I need to do something with my life other than just get drunk all the time and avoid people.
I have to be healthier. This means no more caffeine and actually eating the salads my mom makes. I need to cut back on my alcohol consumption. Only in moderation and on special occasions when there's people around. Friday is not a special occasion. I have got to exercise more as well.
I need to think more positively, stop being so selfish, and work on being more social. I am beginning to think that just avoiding situations that make me nervous means I'll never be able to learn and grow out of my behavior. I know this sort of thing takes time but you gotta be in it to win it.
I'm going to quit the whole smoking thing. Immediately. I think this is the most important thing. I'll feel better, live longer, and save lots of money. I'll have to replace this behavior with something more constructive. I plan on reteaching myself guitar and playing BG totally obsessively until I'm over it. If the next time you guys see me I'm still smoking then you're allowed to yell at me and reference this post.
Thanks for reading.